=) No, what you said didn't make me angry. Thank you for saying it. The stuff I said is partly out of character, but only partly. Its just a part of me that surfaces every so often so its part of my character just a small part (therefore, partlY, haha).

And while on we're on the subject, hahaha, some of the stuff I said is ridiculous. Just has to make you laugh out loud, like the slaying children part. Very ridiculous, very coffee shop lik. Not saying the feelings weren't true but the words are quite hilarious =).

So, anyways, I don't know what to say. I love you and I really don't feel like myself right. Not cause of the post, I just don't right now. Maybe a little reading and video games will help. I am looking forward to this weekend and hopefully time together is what we need. I want to be happy with you Elizabeth, I really do. Just got some weird hang ups to get over. But I shall seen you soon beautiful and we shall dance =P

Sincerely your,

Chris

Whoa. All I can really say is that by now you should know that you are not alone. I don't think it is wise to push that kind of anger on the Moon, but hey, its your words, not mine. I know you are angry. Hideously so. Slaying children and babies? C'mon Christopher, that is not you. I am not claiming to know you... apparently I shouldn't if I did not know that you could hate me like that, I am just saying that those writings seem out of character for you. The last post makes sense to me... and I am glad you see that insight. Don't waste your precious time punishing the world. It isn't worth it.

Just one lonely girl's opinion

Elizabeth

P.S. I know that what I just wrote might have made you angry and I am sorry. Call it bullshit if you want.

Much is what is said there about killing is not true. I will not kill for it is not right. Even if I am used by everyone, I feel I should let them go and bear the pain. Why screw up other people just because they screw me over? They won't care anyways. And so I turn away and walk alone and hope to one day find someone who makes me happy. =) From the vault of Chris,

Chris

Ihate everyone. I can't stand being the person I was or even who I am. I will never go back. Never. I will kill every last mother fucker on the face of this planet, I will murder babies, I will kill children, I will slay everyone before I go back to who I was before. I will never be used - not by you, not by fate, not by anyone. I will kill before I go back and I will not be used.

I am not happy often and most of it is myself, my fault, but I am trying. I am trying to be happy. I want to be free and I want to be sexual and those things are VERY VERY hard to balance, especially when I am in such a relationship that I do not want to give up. I am horny but I can control it and we will be okay.

And I don't really want to say this but I have to get it out so you'll know. It's weird, but there are parts of me that can love and parts of me that can hate and both can be present at the same time. There is a part of me that hates you Elizabeth, hates you with an absolute incredible passion. There is a part of me that wants to kill you at times. For what you've done and for who you are. You asked me once, at the beginning of our relationship to trust you (Adam was up I believe). Well I did and I was wrong to do so. It was right not to trust you but perhaps it was better that I did for I learned to take and I learned what to watch out for and I learned who not to trust which is just about everybody. To give is to be used and so I will try very hard not to give anywhere as much anymore. No one is worth it, no one has ever proved themselves or returned it to me - at least not to the extent that I expect. Maybe I expect too much but even so, people aren't worth it. And there is a part of me that hates you Elizabeth but there is also a part of me that loves you and respects you very very much. You are perhaps the best person I have ever met. Ever. I look up to you and I even model myself after you. Hey, maybe I'm just weak. Ta-ta girl.

Sincerely,
Chris

P.S. Fuck you Fate and Fuck you Moon. You are not on my side, you are on the side of the people who suck up to you the most. Try to use me to help them and I will kill you too. Or at the very least mess up your very carefully laid plans. Its amazing what a crazy person can do ;-)

Chris *kiss*

Fuck you and a woman's worth